Why I Regret “Waiting Until Marriage”: Purity Culture Explored

PURITY RINGSI was raised in what many people refer to as “purity culture”: I was taught that abstinence was the only acceptable way to live, I was encouraged to wear a purity ring and “save myself” for marriage. And I did it all- I got myself a purity ring, saved my virginity and even my first real kiss for my wedding day, and encouraged everyone else to do the same. And at the time I convinced myself that all this was good, that I wanted it this way. But looking back, I wish I’d done it differently.
I feel cheated out of romantic moments that should have happened in a natural progression within my relationship.
Instead of having my first kiss in front of two hundred people, I wish it had been PRIVATE, and in our own time. I resent the fact that this incredibly intimate moment was shared with everyone, instead of happening at a romantic moment earlier in our relationship. I was indoctrinated with the idea that this somehow made me morally superior- so we waited. As a result, my first kiss was sort of an awkward shock instead of a tender, loving experience.
The Wedding Night
As for the wedding night- well, I could write a book on this subject. The wedding night is painted as this magical experience, more so because it’s your “first time” together as a “pure couple”. But what they don’t tell you is that your first time is often not very romantic at all.
Both people barely know what they’re doing, for one thing. You’re not supposed to know too much about sex prior to marriage because it can cause “inappropriate thoughts”, so how can you be fully prepared? I used to subscribe to a Christian forum that was about marriage. They had a separate thread for engaged couples and didn’t allow them to view threads for married couples. And of course you can’t watch porn or read erotic fiction, and even love scenes in movies are considered bad. Most people who fully devote themselves to purity culture have no sweet clue what to do.
It’s sometimes painful for the gals the first time! The hymen usually has to be stretched or torn, and because you’re nervous and it’s been so hyped up in your mind, you’re probably not creating much natural lubricant (bring lube, people!)
You’re exhausted after an insanely long wedding day- it’s not the greatest time to have such an intimate experience for the first time. I really wish I had been having sex beforehand because then I wouldn’t have had to deal with those issues on such a special night. I wish that my first time had been a part of our natural relationship progression- not forced into a wedding “schedule”, waiting until society said it was ok for me to enjoy it.
It’s also awkward knowing that people KNOW it’s your first time- when you leave the reception as a couple known for your purity stance, you get the winks and nudges of people who know full well that you’re about to get laid for the first time. Awkward! And even if they aren’t actually thinking it or poking fun, it’s still awkward. Especially when your parents drop you off at the hotel. (Red face) When you’re already sleeping together, it’s not a big deal- nobody is really thinking about your “deflowering”. Or at least YOU’RE not thinking about them thinking about it.
Relationships must progress in an unnatural manner to be deemed “appropriate”.
All couples reach a point where they are emotionally and physically ready to go farther than just holding hands. Normally, a couple can simply take it as it comes- when they’re ready, they make love. But in purity culture, you have to deny yourself those things- and that can put a strain on your relationship. If you can’t move forward, where does that leave you? It keeps you in a constant state of stressful limbo that can only be fully remedied by getting married or splitting up. That’s why so many Christian couples get married so young- often before they are really ready for it. I have no doubt that this is partly the reason for the high divorce rate among Christians- it’s even slightly higher than “the world’s” divorce rate. What does that tell you? Purity culture isn’t working!
Purity culture demonizes masturbation.
I used to feel absolutely disgusted with myself if I broke down and masturbated. I thought I was gross, a terrible sinful person. For women, how can you instruct your man to bring you to orgasm if you don’t know how it all works? Speaking from experience- it’s pretty difficult. Since I got over my indoctrination against masturbation, my sex life has gotten SO much better. And contrary to what purity culture teaches you, masturbation and porn do not necessarily go hand in hand. Many people don’t use porn but still masturbate. Masturbation is also a lot of fun during sex- a lot of guys get very turned on watching their partners touch themselves, and it’s lots of fun to touch each other that way. But when you grow up hearing how bad it is, you either lose out or constantly feel guilty about enjoying it.

I regret waiting until I was married. I know some people regret not waiting, for other reasons. At the end of the day, it doesn’t matter what a couple decides- as long as it’s genuinely THEIR decision. If they want to wait, great! If they’re consenting adults and they’re being safe and healthy about their pre-marital sexual actions, great! No one should look down on them or judge them for their choices, and young people should not be raised to think that there is only one acceptable way to conduct a relationship. Humans are far too diverse to slap one solution on everyone and expect it to work. Shouldn’t we realize this by now?

Every couple should decide what’s best for THEM specifically, not what society or their social groups tell them is best. And believe it or not, I fully support a couple’s decision to wait if that’s what they feel is best for them. I also support a couple’s decision to live together and/or never get married at all if that’s what they want. It’s none of my business!

So why do I even talk about it? Because I grew up in social circles that told me that there was only ONE way to have a successful relationship, and anyone who dared to step outside of this narrow mold was treated differently. They were “sinners”, “doomed for relationships problems”, and were always pressured and encouraged to get married as soon as possible. I was taught that girls who had sex were low hanging fruit, they were dirty and used, somehow broken and less worthy. It may not have been said in those exact words, but the message was crystal clear. I grew up with this intense shame about my sexuality, and I hope to prevent another generation from growing up with the same shame and limitations. I want everyone to realize that they can choose their own path, and for other people to stop shaming and judging  them for doing so.

I also want people to stop telling lies about how much better purity culture is. If it truly offered something better, then the church’s divorce rate should be much lower- but it’s actually just the same if not higher in the church. If purity culture was really all that great, then why do so many people come out of it disillusioned later in life, or have to deal with marital/sexual/mental problems caused by an unhealthy view of sex? And why do states that rely on abstinence only education have the highest rates of STD’s, teen pregnancies, and abortions? It doesn’t work. It just causes unnecessary shame and harm.

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“Oklahoma bill would put an end to marriage licenses”

STATEHOUSE RALLY
“Oklahoma state Rep. Todd Russ, R-Cordell, has filed a bill that would put an end to marriage licenses in the state. Under his plan, a religious official would sign a couple’s marriage certificate, which would then be filed with the court clerk.”

Read the whole thing here:

http://newsok.com/oklahoma-bill-would-put-an-end-to-marriage-licenses/article/5386633/?page=2

They don’t want to do their job if everyone has the right to marry, so now they won’t do any marriages at all. What happened to doing your job and not judging the people who come to you for legal government services? They have no business judging the personal lives of people who come to their office for official government services, and marriage is a legal contract offered by our government.

In 2004, Oklahoma voters approved, 1,075,216 to 347,303, a constitutional amendment defining marriage as being between a man and a woman.

“Oklahoma voted overwhelmingly against same-sex marriage, and yet the Supreme Court stuck it down our throats,” Russ said.

How is this any different from when county clerks refused to marry interracial couples back in the day? There was a time when interracial marriages were also opposed by the majority. The majority shouldn’t be ruling on a minority’s basic human rights! Would you want your marital rights to be decided by the mob?

And by the way, if this bill gets passed, it would require atheists to have a religious official sign their marriage certificate instead of a judge. How is that fair to atheists?

“Marriages are not supposed to be a government thing anyway,” he said Wednesday.

Oh really? Then maybe we should take away YOUR right to all the 1,000+ legal benefits and protections that marriage offers in our country and see how YOU like a non-government version of marriage.

But this is what so often happens when a hardcore fundamentalist person gets into the government: It’s ok for him to try to push his religion on other people, and then cry “persecution” when he’s not allowed to do it. This pastor/state rep is upset that he’s not allowed to discriminate and marginalize a minority group.

I feel so bad for you, Mr. Russ. I can’t imagine how HARD it is to not be allowed to force your religion on other people. It must be so traumatic for you and your staff to have to actually render legal government services to people who don’t believe the same way you do.

Yes, I am pissed off. This is getting more and more ridiculous. But what pisses me off even more is that atheists are so often blamed for the problems in this country. The US mess is a collective issue, and oppressive religious people like this are making it way worse by constantly making us fight over women’s reproductive rights and marriage equality. If they stopped trying to regulate other people’s lives and focused on the economy and other issues, maybe we could actually fix some things!

End rant.

annoyUSE